Whatever I want, whenever I want, however I like it.
Arrrrrgggggggghhhhhhhhhhh !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Posted 06-06-2009 at 09:57 PM by Sadie555
Updated 06-06-2009 at 10:03 PM by Sadie555 (I CAN'T EDIT IT RIGHT!!!!!!!! ARRRRGGGHHHHH!!!)
Updated 06-06-2009 at 10:03 PM by Sadie555 (I CAN'T EDIT IT RIGHT!!!!!!!! ARRRRGGGHHHHH!!!)
I'm done. I've reached a limit. That's it. (Don't worry, that's all a lie. I never quit. But it's damn close to the truth.)
Nothing has been good lately. Even the stuff that should be good, well, it doesn't register. Believe me, there is a HUGE list of things that have happened in the past week or so which have just built up into this huge ball of stress. I'm so depressed right now, I can't really function. I spend entire days just trying to cope with my anxiety, trying to work up the strength just to do some everyday work. There is no one I feel I can really talk to right now, and I can't even figure out where to start.
One thing after another, everyday is beginning to be a challenge to work through. And I just keep getting so mad at myself for not being able to just freaking stop worrying and start working and getting stuff done. I should be stronger than that. There are people counting on me to do things, and I'm letting them down one after another. I'm one of those people too.
So now I'm just trying to deal. Trying to just be. That's all I have the strength to do right now. Just wallow in my stupid self pity. Just being a zombie. Giving half of a fake smile when anyone says hi. Waiting for one of the people who I might, just might, be able to function with, to have the time out of their busy schedule to help. Though, I don't expect them to actually be able to help me at this point.
And I can't even get this stupid title to work right
Nothing has been good lately. Even the stuff that should be good, well, it doesn't register. Believe me, there is a HUGE list of things that have happened in the past week or so which have just built up into this huge ball of stress. I'm so depressed right now, I can't really function. I spend entire days just trying to cope with my anxiety, trying to work up the strength just to do some everyday work. There is no one I feel I can really talk to right now, and I can't even figure out where to start.
One thing after another, everyday is beginning to be a challenge to work through. And I just keep getting so mad at myself for not being able to just freaking stop worrying and start working and getting stuff done. I should be stronger than that. There are people counting on me to do things, and I'm letting them down one after another. I'm one of those people too.
So now I'm just trying to deal. Trying to just be. That's all I have the strength to do right now. Just wallow in my stupid self pity. Just being a zombie. Giving half of a fake smile when anyone says hi. Waiting for one of the people who I might, just might, be able to function with, to have the time out of their busy schedule to help. Though, I don't expect them to actually be able to help me at this point.
And I can't even get this stupid title to work right
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Be good to yourself...
Just leave everything just for a while and do something that really pleases you.
Things will soon get better.Posted 06-06-2009 at 10:09 PM by Tarya Nórui
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Deep breaths hon
Never pass an opportunity to have a smile
Posted 06-06-2009 at 10:54 PM by Jimborama -
Sorry you're feeling like this Sadie. Just do one thing at a time, step-by-step. Don't look at the big stuff, just concentrate on one small thing for now. And look after yourself sweetie, it's importantPosted 06-06-2009 at 11:45 PM by sasquatch - we cannot reach the top of mountain with a single jump, we must go step by step, a little step after another, slowly, seeing what surrounds us, stopping when we cannot do another step... then we restart, step by step until we are on the top and then we can tell "Lord, we can dominate the valley from here!" and we became happy
Smiley yourself and do a thing after a thing, slowly and seeing what u think beautiful for uPosted 06-07-2009 at 01:54 AM by Adamantia -
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Take care.Spoiler:Posted 06-07-2009 at 09:11 AM by itSFMe -
Hope things get better for you very, very soon!
You know you can always have a good rant here!
Take care huniPosted 06-07-2009 at 10:27 PM by Lucy UK
