Well I decided to write a new blog...
And much to my surprise...one of my blogs was completely gone...meh...i supposed it had it coming.
*Sigh*

At least the love blog wasnt deleted...i would have been really down if that happened.
This week has been hectic with all my appointments and such.

I found out from my blood test that I have higher cholesterol and triglycerides than my parents...and I'm only 19. *Sigh.*
I found out also...that the girl I've had my eye on and have been trying to help quit smoking...is going to school in South Dakota...I knew this was coming. Yet I'm still crushed.

So now I live in a loveless void, where I am surrounded by friends who know nothing of my feelings and havent seent me in a week. Yay for spring break right...*sigh*

I am glad on one hand that there have been so many people here at Nordinho that have been really helpful in the respect that they have all been really nice and it's something I desperately need right now.

I'm trying to figure out if I should tell the girl about ALL my feelings this time or if I should just let her go. She knows I have feelings for her yet, she doesn't know the extent. Either way I dont think it would matter much seeing as though she's leaving after the end of this year. I dont know about school either. College is much more difficult than I thought it wold be. I'm not exerting myself enough and I know this is why I am not doing very well. If I don't perform to the best of my ability in the next two months my parents will pull me out of school, and I'll be workin hard labor with my dad. Not something I'm looking forward to. All i can do is bust it these next 8 weeks, and hope only good things come of it. Lets just say my professors are quite disappointed with this English major. Being a freshman does NOT have its perks.

Other than that I really would like to see my friends. Darren especially he always has a way to make me laugh.

And Alex...ahh alex...one of my best friends since going to college. I met a girl at school, named Kristina. How does Alex pertain to this? In a moment...well she and I dated for 4 months, and it was great. Things got rocky in the end, and it was a bad breakup. She left me for guess who? Alex. The only good thing was nothing was happening behind my back, and I am completely ok with the two of them dating and they both know it. I'm glad to know she's finally happy. But Alex always knows just how to help me out with his words of wisdom.

I suppose I'm done for now. I'm not tired, but I wish I was. No sleep for me, and no rest for the wicked. So...paalam as they say in Tagallop. Wish me luck that I find the girl that is truly right for me. And for anyone who has ever read Sir Gawain and the Green Knight: "Any love that is easily won, is not true love at all."
And sometimes I really believe that to be true, just like i secretly enjoy the beauty in nature, a woman's smile, or in the sound of children laughing.
Good Night for Now
~Bill~